The Day After....
Edit: Just so you know what I am talking about here I thought I would give you a little background. Last night, in a fit of anger, I sat down and wrote my wife a letter. We had had an argument and I was feeling slighted by her. Well, just writing this anger filled letter wasn't enough for me I had to go ahead and publish it here on my site. After some wise advice I chose to delete it (see post immediately above this one). Okay, now back to my blog.....
Well, in hind sight I am not sure how I feel about actually going through with giving her the letter. I was woke up this morning with a call from her at 7:00 am. I guess she had found the letter and was calling me while on her way to work. We stayed on the phone for about 10 minutes and it was probably the longest phone conversation we have had since getting married. Unfortunately it wasn't a pleasant call.
I will hurry this up and make it quick, she was pretty pissed that I would say and think the things I wrote about. She told me that all of this was just in my head, and the only successful thing I was doing was pushing her away. I told her that, while it may be true that it is only in my head, she was responsible for putting it there. If I got the attention from her that I deserve then there would be NO reason for me to think that way about her. We ended this, and the next two calls the same way....her saying she loved me so much and how she wanted to talk more about this later today/tonight.
I tell ya'll one thing. I know I over react and am way too sensitive, but I don't have to be this way. If she would just be consistent and help me to always know I matter to her, then all of this would be mute.
I love Susan more than life itself and would never want to do anything or behave in a certain way that would cause her to want to leave. Ya'll let me know what your thought are on this, please. I can't wait for these new anti depressant pills doc has me on to kick in!
Well, in hind sight I am not sure how I feel about actually going through with giving her the letter. I was woke up this morning with a call from her at 7:00 am. I guess she had found the letter and was calling me while on her way to work. We stayed on the phone for about 10 minutes and it was probably the longest phone conversation we have had since getting married. Unfortunately it wasn't a pleasant call.
I will hurry this up and make it quick, she was pretty pissed that I would say and think the things I wrote about. She told me that all of this was just in my head, and the only successful thing I was doing was pushing her away. I told her that, while it may be true that it is only in my head, she was responsible for putting it there. If I got the attention from her that I deserve then there would be NO reason for me to think that way about her. We ended this, and the next two calls the same way....her saying she loved me so much and how she wanted to talk more about this later today/tonight.
I tell ya'll one thing. I know I over react and am way too sensitive, but I don't have to be this way. If she would just be consistent and help me to always know I matter to her, then all of this would be mute.
I love Susan more than life itself and would never want to do anything or behave in a certain way that would cause her to want to leave. Ya'll let me know what your thought are on this, please. I can't wait for these new anti depressant pills doc has me on to kick in!
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